Theres nothing to say, nothing to do, nothing to understand. I sit in stillness. The silence breaks my concentration and I begin to think. Thats where things go wrong, you see, I think, then I feel. I feel things undescribable from the human language but I try to restain them until they subside. News Flash!! They dont subside. They wait until that moment when its quiet so you can hear them loudly and feel them emensely. Even when I want to scream I dont because I’m letting my feelings know they won. They cant fucking win. I have a life to finish.